Whispers of a Radical

I can't believe it.

Tue, 19 Dec 2006 18:07:51 GMT

A two year relationship and I am now engaged to be married... I am so happy!

Fri, 13 Oct 2006 04:58:27 GMT

White & Nerdy

Wed, 04 Oct 2006 07:34:36 GMT



"White & Nerdy" on Google Video
Music video by "Weird Al" Yankovic from the album "Straight Outta Lynwood"

Sat, 02 Sep 2006 21:33:43 GMT

Where is time going? It seems like yesterday that I came here to this university, and now I am a senior. It is time for me to figure out what I am going to do with my life, what I am going to do after this year, and I really need to make that decision within the next two months, especially if I decide to go to graduate school, which is the most likely thing that I'll do. This means I need to figure out a graduate school, get recommendations, take the GREs, and all that crap, while I'm taking 18 units of upper level math and chemistry course and working 15 hours a week. Will I make it through this semester? I guess I'll have to. I just wish I could stop time and figure things out, but I don't want to waste away my life in indecision.

Wed, 22 Mar 2006 06:40:32 GMT

Sometimes people just disappear from your life when you take them for granted.

Tue, 14 Feb 2006 15:43:53 GMT

If I wanted government to dictate and regulate every f***ing thing in this world, I'd move to China.

Hitlerizing Post-Secondary Education

Tue, 14 Feb 2006 15:30:37 GMT

The secretary of education has appointed a commission to evaluate higher education (post-secondary). There are some in this commission who believe that standardized testing must be implemented in higher education. My thoughts are that standardized testing means teaching students to pass the test. Teaching students to pass a test means having a standardized curriculum. Having a standardized curriculum means limiting the students' intellectual growth and development, and this leads to limiting their education.

There is one thing for sure in all of this. Someone's going to profit, and it isn't going to be the students, the educators, or the general public. It's going to be the test makers. There is no question that money (tax payers' money) is going to exchange hands, from the government to the private company or governmental department implementing the tests.

"To subject colleges to uniform standards is to trivialize what goes on in higher education. Excellence comes in many unusual ways. You cannot apply the rules of high-stakes testing in high schools to universities."
-Leon Botstein, president of Bard College.

David L. Warren, president of the National Association of Independent Colleges and Universities, a group representing private, nonprofit colleges and universities: "What we oppose is a single, national, high-stakes, one-size-fits-all, uber-outcome exam. The notion of a single exam implies there are national standards, and that implies a national curriculum. Then we are on the way to a centralized Prussian education system."

And private institutions are also being targetted:

"Although public universities seem most vulnerable to regulatory oversight because they are subsidized by state taxpayers, Mr. Miller points out that private colleges are subject to regulation, too. They are accredited by groups authorized by the federal government. And they must meet certain standards to qualify for federal grants and financial aid.

"What we call public universities would be under the most pressure," Mr. Miller said. "But the question is, How public are some of the private universities? They depend a lot on public funding, too. And we have shifted more of the cost back to students. So I think consumers and other people will begin to ask questions like this more."" -New york times

Sat, 04 Feb 2006 07:36:05 GMT

Can anyone be as happy and as in love as me?

Some statistics

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 17:18:35 GMT

"More than 40% of all women will end a pregnancy by abortion at some time in their reproductive lives."

"Worldwide, some 20-30 million legal abortions are performed each year, with another 10-20 million abortions performed illegally. Illegal abortions are unsafe and account for 13% of all deaths of women because of serious complications. Death from abortion is almost unknown in the United States or in other countries where abortion is legally available."

"Legal abortion is a safe procedure. Infection rates are less than 1%, and fewer than 1 in 100,000 deaths occurs from first-trimester abortions. Abortion is safer for the mother than carrying a pregnancy to term."

http://www.emedicinehealth.com/articles/38399-1.asp

Sun, 25 Dec 2005 19:46:43 GMT

Merry Christmas Everyone!!!!

Sun, 11 Dec 2005 01:21:23 GMT

After finals, I shall go home and decorate a lovely dionysus tree. I shall also drink some wine and wait for my Dionysus to come. ;-)
But maybe not in that order.

One year, and even more in love

Fri, 09 Dec 2005 03:59:28 GMT

Today marks 365 days Ben and I have been together.
Ben, I love you more today than 365 days ago.
;-)

and in Woody Allen's philosophic words:
"To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering one must not love. But then one suffers from not loving. Therefore to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer. To suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy then is to suffer. But suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness. I hope you're getting this down."

So, Ben, I am suffering from too much happiness loving you! :-)

Sun, 20 Nov 2005 21:23:01 GMT

Pride and Prejudice is an awesome movie!!!!!!!!!!! It was so true to the book, yet so refreshingly humorous. I hardly ever say this, but the movie is better than the book. Jane Austen presents her characters very seriously, but the characters are indeed very humorous. It's true. Go see the movie, it's really good, even for people who don't like Jane Austen.

Fri, 11 Nov 2005 19:55:07 GMT

You scored as Neo, the "One". Neo is the computer hacker-turned-Messiah of the Matrix. He leads a small group of human rebels against the technology that controls them. Neo doubts his ability to lead but doesn't want to disappoint his friends. His goal is for a world where all men know the Truth and are free from the bonds of the Matrix.

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Lara Croft

67%

Indiana Jones

67%

Batman, the Dark Knight

67%

Neo, the "One"

67%

Maximus

50%

William Wallace

46%

The Terminator

42%

El Zorro

42%

The Amazing Spider-Man

42%

James Bond, Agent 007

42%

Captain Jack Sparrow

38%

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Tue, 01 Nov 2005 17:25:19 GMT

Why is abortion a central issue for a supreme court justice?

The answer is simple, because this single issue shows almost decisively much about the supreme court justice. This issue shows where the judge stands not only on woman's right, but on the separation between church and state. This single issue is the most important because it combines the ideals of the separation of church and state, as well as woman's rights and freedom over one's own body (a freedom that is soooo very essential, even more essential than free speech or any of the humdrum rights that are garanteed explicitly by the bill of rights.) This is not just about privacy, but it is about the right of a woman to choose her future, her worth, her role in society, her right to life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness. It is about the right of a woman to choose whether she wants to put her physical health, as well as mental health, on the line, whether she wants to go through hours of pain and years of responsibility. If the justice agrees with woman's equality and a man's right to life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness, but does not agree with the right to choose as constitutionally protected, then the judge is either inconsistent or has moral issues with abortion, the latter case would mean that the judge's decisions are infringing on the separation of church and state. The right to choose is not just not about liberty, it is about life and death for woman with complicated pregnancies. This is more than just a single issue, it is the issue that all our modern ideas of freedom, equality, and justice pend. This single issue conveys more meaning than almost all other issues. It will determine whether women have rights or whether they are nothing to society.

No one, especially orginialists, can argue with the constitution. A woman's right to choose is protected by the ninth, tenth, and fourteenth amendment, with the knowledge of what these amendments say, and in what context they were established.

In the constitutions own words:
"The enumeration in the Constitution, of certain rights, shall not be construed to deny or disparage others retained by the people."

Sun, 30 Oct 2005 23:17:53 GMT

Let's see, I believe Robert Frost can express my sentiments more than I in his poem "Lodged":

The rain to the wind said,
"You push and I'll pelt."
They so smote the garden bed
That the flowers actually knelt,
And lay lodged -- though not dead.
I know how the flowers felt.

Sun, 30 Oct 2005 22:59:43 GMT

With which do you agree, the clod of clay or the pebble of the brook?

The Clod and the Pebble by William Blake:

"Love seeketh not itself to please,
Nor for itself hath any care,
But for another gives its ease,
And builds a heaven in hell's despair."

So sung a little Clod of Clay,
Trodden with the cattle's feet,
But a Pebble of the brook
Warbled out these metres meet:

"Love seeketh only Self to please,
To bind another to its delight,
Joys in another's loss of ease,
And builds a hell in heaven's despite."

Tue, 25 Oct 2005 03:22:58 GMT

I'm so sick of my life. I'm so tired.

What am I to do?

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 18:41:42 GMT

Can someone please tell me, what am I going to do with my life? Have I picked the right choice? Will I regret it latter? What does my future hold?
I'm always afraid that I'll pick a path and waste away my life on something that brings me nothing but regret, regret for the things that I could have done, regret for leading a meaningless and unaccomplished life. What should I do with my life? should I try to get into an M.D./PhD program? am I good enough to get in? or will I waste my time trying, only to come out in failure? Do I really want to do medical research, the answer is yes. I really want to do medical research, but then again, I want to do a lot of other things. I want to continue with my math major, but I want to not have such a stressful schedule, and I want to graduate in 4 years. I want to be able to do everything, and still have time left over. But part of me feels neglected, part of me feels like I need to do something totally different, part of me feels like I want to see the world. Part of me wants to fly, but part of me wants to settle in. I'm so confused.

I would like to know:

Why do we desire what we don't have?
I think shakespeare said it best:

When in disgrace with fortune in men's eyes,
I all alone beweep my outcast state,
and trouble deaf heaven with my bootless cries,
and look upon myself and curse my fate,
wishing me like to one more rich in hope,
Featur'd like him, like him with friends possess'd,
Desiring this man's art, and that man's scope,
With what I most enjoy contented least,
Yet in these thoughts myself almost despising,
Haply I think of thee -- and then my state,
Like to the lark at break of day arising,
From sullen earth sing hymns at heaven's gate;
For thy sweet love remember'd such wealth brings,
That then I scorn to change my state with kings.

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 03:47:32 GMT

The Priss
Deliberate Brutal Love Dreamer (DBLDf)

Mature. Responsible. Aristocratic. Excuse me. The Priss.

Prisses are the smartest of all female types. You're highly perceptive, and confident in your judgements. You'd take brutal honesty over superficiality any time--your friends always know where they stand with you. You're completely unfake. Don't tell me that's not a word. You're also excellent at redirecting internal negative energy.

These facts indicate people are often intimidated by you. They also fall for you, hard. You have a distant, composed allure that many find irresistible. If only more of them lived up to your standards.

Your exact opposite:
The Playstation

Random Gentle Sex Master

You were probably the last among your friends to have sex. And the first to pretend that you're pregnant. LOL. Though you're inclined to use sex as weapon, at least it's not as one of mass destruction. You're choosier than most about your partners. A supportive relationship is what you're really after. Whether you know it or not, you need something steady & long-term. And soothing.

ALWAYS AVOID: The Playboy, The Loverboy

CONSIDER: The Manchild

Link: The 32-Type Dating Test by OkCupid

Fri, 14 Oct 2005 23:18:19 GMT

You are a
Social Liberal
(85% permissive)

and an...
Economic Liberal
(30% permissive)

You are best described as a:

Strong Democrat

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Where in the world is Maria Ester Guerrero?

Thu, 13 Oct 2005 00:26:18 GMT

Does anyone know what happen to Maria?
Maria, where are you? your phone is not working!
I've tried sending you emails, and I get no reply!
and your last post was over two months ago!
Please give some evidence of your existence,
just so I know nothing bad has happened to you!

Sat, 08 Oct 2005 18:45:30 GMT

Hand-Raiser
You are 100% Rational, 71% Extroverted, 0% Brutal, and 0% Arrogant.

You are the Hand-Raiser, that annoying kid in class who always had an answer for everything. No doubt, as a child you probably sat in the front of the class, anxiously waving your hand back and forth in the air while your teacher desperately tried to avoid calling on you because you were the ONLY fucking kid that answered her questions. Clearly, the key traits of your personality are your rationality and your extroversion. You are like a little talkative calculator, in other words. You also tend to be rather gentle and less arrogant than most people. So what is your defect, then? Well, you're boring, and when you're not boring, you are just plain annoying with your ultra-logical responses and constant need to talk to others. So keep waving that hand in the air, son. I'm still not calling on you. You are too logical, you talk too much, and your humility and gentleness only makes me hate you more, because they make me feel like I almost SHOULDN'T hate you. But I do. Big time.

To put it less negatively:

1. You are more RATIONAL than intuitive.

2. You are more EXTROVERTED than introverted.

3. You are more GENTLE than brutal.

4. You are more HUMBLE than arrogant.

Compatibility:

Your exact opposite is the Brute.

Other personalities you would probably get along with are the Braggart, the Haughty Intellectual, and the Robot.

If you scored near fifty percent for a certain trait (42%-58%), you could very well go either way. For example, someone with 42% Extroversion is slightly leaning towards being an introvert, but is close enough to being an extrovert to be classified that way as well. Below is a list of the other personality types so that you can determine which other possible categories you may fill if you scored near fifty percent for certain traits.

The other personality types:

The Emo Kid: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Humble.

The Starving Artist: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant.

The Bitch-Slap: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Humble.

The Brute: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

The Hippie: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble.

The Televangelist: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant.

The Schoolyard Bully: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble.

The Class Clown: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

The Robot: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Humble.

The Haughty Intellectual: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant.

The Spiteful Loner: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Humble.

The Sociopath: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

The Hand-Raiser: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble.

The Braggart: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant.

The Capitalist Pig: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble.

The Smartass: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 91% on Rationality

You scored higher than 73% on Extroversion

You scored higher than 0% on Brutality

You scored higher than 0% on Arrogance

Link: The Personality Defect Test written by saint_gasoline on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

Wed, 28 Sep 2005 01:53:25 GMT

Why do I continue on, why does my luck just get worse? My knee is not doing too well and now I'm sick with Physical Chemistry homework due tomorrow, and I haven't even started it. I started school from 8 am and worked either in lab or in lecture till 5 pm. and now I have hours more of homework before I can go to bed. I just want to get a full nights worth of sleep. I just want to feel well....

A quote spoken from the depths of hell

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 01:34:18 GMT

This quote is all over my math 323 class website: (hmm, makes me wonder why I even considered staying in the class. This quote is indeed spoken from the depths of hell e.g. my math 323 website)

"The shame of speaking unskilfully were small if the tongue onely thereby were disgrac'd: But as the Image of a King in his Seale ill-represented is not so much a blemish to the waxe, or the Signet that seal'd it, as to the Prince it representeth, so disordered speech is not so much injury to the lips that give it forth, as to the disproportion and incoherence of things in themselves, so negligently expressed. Neither can his Mind be thought to be in Tune, whose words do jarre; nor his reason in frame, whose sentence is preposterous; nor his Elocution clear and perfect, whose utterance breaks itself into fragments and uncertainties. Negligent speech doth not onely discredit the person of the Speaker, but it discrediteth the opinion of his reason and judgement; it discrediteth the force and uniformity of the matter and substance. If it be so then in words, which fly and 'scape censure, and where one good Phrase asks pardon for many incongruities and faults, how then shall he be thought wise whose penning is thin and shallow? How shall you look for wit from him whose leasure and head, assisted with the examination of his eyes, yeeld you no life or sharpnesse in his writing?"

Ben Jonson (emphasis added)